So you just thought I was perfect. Yes, you were so wrong. I get tempted often. There are times when I’m able to overcome and get the victory while others…. Well, no so much. Maybe this will help someone else who has possibly done the same thing.
Yesterday morning could not have started out to be more beautiful. The girls were being good, everyone had gotten up on time, had a great breakfast, all showered and dress. You would have thought that we were the picture of a family that was about to go off to the house of the Lord for worship. Right? Well, that is certainly where we should have ended up. But here is what actually happened.
It was a drill weekend for Mike so he had already gotten up and gone to work. I was up ready to go to either re-visit my brothers church in Hot Springs or to go our family church. But without a real plan I got off on the wrong track. The enemy saw weakness and here he comes like he always does. Walking to and fro the earth seeking whom he can devour. Needless to say he made a right turn onto the path that I was stuck on. He come up behind me and started whispering his little lies saying “Well, tomorrow is a big school day and you really need to go finish your last minute shopping for the girls to all be ready”. “It sure would be a long drive to church all by yourself in this old car with all these mile on it”. “Are you really going to go set on a pew all alone”. Now, since when did the enemy start caring about my well being? Unfortunately that temptation worked just as he planned. I literally found my at the crossroads on which way to turn. The girls in the back seat saying “Momma, are you lost”? “Where are we going”? “What are you doing”?….. “Hold on girls, I’m thinking”. What I should have said is “Hold on… Im trying to reason with the stinking devil and this might take a minute”. So what did I do? Unfortunately I did the opposite of what I should have.
I chose the path that lead me to go ahead and get the school stuff done. I KNOW!!!! OH Trust Me, I KNOW!!!! The whole time I hear the Lord screaming to my heart saying “Come to me”!!!! “I have a message for you”!!! “I’m want to spend time with you feeding you with my word”!!! “There was a blessing just for you”!!! “I’m jealous for you and I have all of this to offer…. “WHY ARE YOU TURNING THE OTHER WAY”? “Don’t you think I’ll take care of your girls tomorrow with their supplies”? Isn’t it not written: Luke 12:24 “Consider the ravens:for they neither sow nor reap; which neither have storehouse nor barn; and God feeds them: how much more are you better than the fowls”? His just kept getting louder and louder. So finally I thought Ok… I have to get my mind on something else. ok… ok… ok… Ummm…. This is no big deal I’ll just turn on the radio and think happy thoughts. Conviction my friends is never fun.
So in that beautiful Sunday Morning moment on the radio, what do you think I thought was going to be on? Some gardening show? Perhaps a political debate or maybe the weather. Of Course, You pegged it…. It was a sermon. The Lord was not finished talking to me so he said “OK!!!! You’re not going to drown me out my child, the president does not have anything on me, IT’S MY DAY AND I’M ON EVERY CHANNEL”!!!!
The Lord worked me over… Blessed be his Holy Name. The sermon was about putting idols before God. I knew that I was about to get chastened and deserved every bit of it. All I could do is say “Yes Lord, I am guilty”. What could a person say? Would you argue with him? It’s one you would not win at. Im sure some of you would say that I was just thinking to much and that need to just move on. Why don’t you try that then and let me know how it turned out for you. It did not work for me. Conviction is a very real thing. If you don’t have conviction and the Lord does not get after you about things in your life, then I can say for certain there is a problem. Hebrews 12:5 says “And you have forgotten the exhortation which speaks unto you as unto children, My son, despise not the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when you are rebuked of him: For whom the Lord loves he chastens, and scourges every sone whom he receives”.
As for my last minute shopping trip for the school supplies…. That was the worst shopping trip I have ever been on and did not walk away with anything that I needed when I could have walked away with a blessing.
So what is the lesson that was I learned? God spoke to my heart and said “Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, not as in my prescense only, but now much more in my absensce, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling”. Philippians 2:12. And not to stop there “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you”. Matthew 6:33.
May the Lord bless you greatly and convictions be plentiful.